“No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”-Dr. O
“Your biggest challenge will be your biggest strength.”
These words gave me hope Freshmen Year when I saw no future for myself, and after hearing them again I have been reminded to rediscover my shining light. This semester has done a lot of damage to my feelings of self-worth. I am finally a licensed driver, but I still hold my breath every time I get behind the wheel. I have proven to be my biggest critic and an unhealthy perfectionist and have fallen into the pitfalls of depression and self-deprecation as a result. For the first time in forever, I am genuinely hating myself again. I have convinced myself that I cannot be asking for help as I continue to drown.
This weekend last year, I accepted who I am and owned my story. Here I am now, and I am desperately reaching to rediscover the spark I thought could never die within me. But I know this, all things must pass. As my advisor said, this is not a failure, this is a work in progress. I am still healing. I am still healing. And that’s okay. My progress is not erased and I am still shining even when I am struggling.
To all who have provided hugs, words of wisdom, and kindness when I feel like I don’t deserve it, thank you for being my light.